Life is Great?

I don't know since when, everytime I think about you, I always feel sad and sometimes cry. 

Not only sad but hate myself.

Maybe since u said that things........horrible things..

So I decided to make your life easier.

I'll be gone..

And after I did that, I noticed that, your life is great huh?

so..this is it..we are from different world and I believe we're not belongs together.

i got to leave you.. I true believe that we're not soulmate anymore..

Back

So.. here I come..
Back into my real world
But everything has changed.
I cut the rope.

I can't resist your presence anymore.
So I broke the cage..and hold you tight.
But I know even we can hold each other whenever we want, time still hunting us
not only time.. but them.

I can't do anything.
I found myself just waiting. Again.
My mind is full of million thoughts about damn things.
I wish I could be free after I broke that cage.

Fate always blocking me.
I wish that our plan going well.
I don't know how to help this out but..
I try my best.

Some distraction came.
And it got worse. Worser than worse. haha..
That shocking truth. It's like double knock out to me
I know it. Ya, I already knew it but I don't want to accept the reality until you said it.

And today, that problem. My actual and 'loyal' problem came again.
I just cried and cried.
But you.. always you..comforting me.
I just felt so bless to know you.

My only one, my beloved one.
Please be safe there
I am waiting for you
Always

Dear..

Happy Birthday dear my lovely man in heaven... :")

Mine

You were in college working part time, waiting tables
Left a small town, never looked back
I was a flight risk with a fear of falling
Wondering why we bother with love if it never lasts
I say, "Can you believe it?"
As we're lying on the couch
The moment I could see it
Yes, yes, I can see it now
 Do you remember we were sitting there by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Flash forward and we're taking on the world together
And there's a drawer of my things at your place
You learn my secrets and you figure out why I'm guarded
You say we'll never make my parents mistakes
We got bills to pay
We got nothing figured out
When it was hard to take
Yes, yes, this is what I thought about
Do you remember we were sitting there by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
Do you remember all the city lights on the water?
You saw me start to believe for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

And I remember that fight, 2:30AM
You said everything was slipping right out of our hands
I ran out crying and you follow me out into the street
Braced myself for the goodbye, cause that's all I've ever known
And you took me by surprise, you said, "I'll never leave you alone"

You said, "I remember how we felt sitting by the water
And every time I look at you it's like the first time.
I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter
She is the best thing that's ever been mine."

Hold on, we'll make it last

 Hold on, never turn back
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
  You are the best thing that's ever been mine

  Do you believe it?
We're gonna make it now
And I can see it
I can see it now:)

Part of Me

Days like this I want to drive away
Pack my bags and watch your shadow fade
You chewed me up and spit me out
Like I was poison in your mouth
You took my light, you drain me down
But that was then and this is now
Now look at me

I just wanna throw my phone away
Find out who is really there for me
You ripped me off, your love was cheap
Was always tearing at the seams
I fell deep, you let me down
But that was then and this is now
Yeah, except for me

 This is the part of me
That you're never gonna ever take away from me

 This is the part of me
That you're never gonna ever take away from me
Throw your sticks and stones
Throw your bombs and blows
But you're not gonna break my soul
This is the part of me
That you're never gonna ever take away from me

Some Moments..

Here's some captures from my Blackberry.

Of course by me and edited too by me :)

awwee..my dreamcatcher! (^__^) original photo-no edited

look! how beautiful is this thing :")

this one, flower for my dad :") miss you...

Rainy night..gold bokeh :">

there's so many moments that I always capture with my BB haha.. I love capture everything and yes I'm not good at capturing :( but what so ever haha..

Tuesday

I woke up with a good feelin..
I had a good sleep :)
Looked outside, it was cloudy sky..no sun at all!
No problem, I like rainy morning..
When I walked to campus, it's raining..
I had two fast class.. (The first because I didn't pay attention so it feels fast :p)
I got a glass of hot tea and noodles too :3 yum!
Then I got back to my room..
I hear humming bird.. sounds so relaxing :)
What a good day..
Rainy day and Tuesday NEVER get me down! hahaha

stolen from Google :p

2647 days

Hugging my pillow..

..and listening to Ken Hirai's song, Nostalgia..

Writing these words..

My heart feel sad..

Those old days.. I never count them until this day..

Those eyes..

the cute rabbit eyes in the mirror..

I can't forget..

My guardian angel

Everytime I fall, you always there, hold my hand and walk beside me..

You saved me..

Nostalgia..

for those sweet days.. :)

Thank You

...Face It

This is the best broken heart song..

From Mr.Mraz.. Details in the fabric..

If it's a broken part, replace it
If it's a broken arm, then brace it
If it's a broken heart, then face it

And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way

And everything will be fine..

Yes, everything will be fine in the end.. :) If it's not fine, then it's not the end!

 cute cat :3 nyaww

Pagodas Trip

It's around 01.00 Monday I arrived in Jogja. Feel really tired..

Well this is my first trip to Madura, and my first time goin to pagoda and temples..

I went to three place..first, in Pamekasan. I forgot what's the pagoda's name coz it's too long to remember..=.=

I stayed overnight there. The place was..new for me..because it was my first time.

I saw a lot of unique ornament..a lot of candles..incense..and people!

There was an event there, celebrate Kwan Im's birthday

And there's a lot of food..24hours without hunger I think :D

There's a unique pure and temples. It's like a peacefull place. People pray and meditate there.

In the next morning, I went to Kenjeran, Surabaya.There's a lot of big sclupture..It's located near the sea.

The sea was dirty and gray, really not interesting haha..

After that I went to Jombang.. another pagoda.. The pagoda is not big.. but it really peaceful.

Oh, I passed Suramadu bridge too. It is long and strange because everytime I passed there all I can see is just Gray..

Gray bridge, Gray sky and Gray sea..Definetly don't like it..!

Overall, I don't really like the trip, what I like is just the new culture, unique place and new experience.

From this trip I really see people's selfishness, moreover they're adult people. They should be good role model for the younger one. But what I see is just shit. I never tolerate that kind of people, whether younger or older. Pathetic!

....Classic =.=

What a bad day. I had lack of sleep because of my curiousity.
Stupid..!
Raining all day.. Just got sleep for 2 hours..
Still need to study for tests tomorrow..
And I forgot to watch orchestra =.= because I fell asleep.....................@#$%^&!
Yea.. Classic!

But one good thing is......I found it finally! Yay ^___^ Waiting for it to come!!
And tomorrow I'll be on trip..
Well it's seems tiring.. 3 days 2 nights.. one night in a bus.. what a nightmare..
I hate bus.. I hate public transportation. It smells bad..weird..anoying fragrance..ahhhhhhh..
Hope it'll be nice trip..

Listening to this song.. hahahaha I always smile whenever I heard this song..coz I remember u ..
Like it so much :)
Wondering what do you like?

So long, Goodbye :)

Done.. It's really done.
I walk towards the light..
The light of my dreams
Leaving my past.. and you
Whatever I said.. Let's forget it now..
I'll keep walkin to the place where the happiness exist

So long , goodbye my dearest friend

Reflection

It is never enough
and will always be like this
Always blame all the fault to me

For once in your life, I beg you to look in the mirror
Look at yourself..

Ya..That is the one thing you never do..
I really hate why I stay like this?
Such a waste..

Friends

Now I'm worried. You really missing. You haven't called your family yet..
U got me sick >.<
I really need to talk to you. I feel so sorry to shut you out..Now we don't have any chances to talk.
Hmm.. I was wondering maybe.. someday.. we could find the way..
Sadly, it's just maybe..
If we don't.. well, I can't even say it..
You..are my very best friend for ever.

Last night, I felt something strange. The feeling that I never felt before.
What is it?
There's my friend. I don't know him well, but he's very kind.
He sang for me, he recorded it and sent it to me.
I was surprised because I thought that he wouldn't do that.
Ya, I was so happy and sad in the same time. It's ironic.. even my friend can do that for me..
That strange feeling.. maybe it's a happy feeling because I felt someone being sincere to me.
Thank you for your sincerity.
I really appreciate it, my friend.
Sincerity is the most beautiful feeling in this world.
So , don't ever lose it. :)
I am very thankful to you .. 

My Past Idol :D

I don't know since when I started to like writing. Ha! This surprised me , I wrote a lot today, and I still want to writing now, hahaha I'm addicted.
Well I think it's better to write in tumblr because all I do is share video =.= It's kinda weird to add a lot of post for a day..but tumblr is slowerrrr.. I just hope people who see this blog won't think that I'm weird ha! and please don't comment about my bad english =.=

Yesterday one of my friend reminded me about Zhou Jie Lun. Who is he? yep, he is Mr. Jay Chou hahaha
My Idol when I was in 6th grade. His song always great, easy listening. I think he has own type for his MV's model. Most of all the models in his MV are looks same, but that's means I like his type hahaha..
His voices, mv and performance are just awesome. I like almost all of his songs.Ya, I'm a big fans of him.

This song is one of my favorite :)

 I like the girl in the water..hahaha

Bleach

Bleach is my favorite anime all the time!

Well it's been a long time since Aizen's dead (too bad, he's handsome!), I haven't watch the new series.

Kinda miss it. And I miss Ichigo.

My favorite character in bleach >.<

He's kind sweet and brave ahahaha dunno why I like him so much!! >.<

Anyway, there's so much Bleach's soundtrack which is YUM!

Of couse my favorite is Thank You. So many memories in that song :')

 sweet isn't it? :)

Home made kazoku's songs always good!

And this one is really good.. First ending song from bleach!

I like the piano version ^^

*drum roll*

And this!

I don't even know why I can sing these song, I don't remember if I memorize these lyrics. But when I played these song, I can sing it properly. It is weird =.="

 

 

Hard rain

The gray sky.. It's dark and cold.
Hard rain..like today.. Erased the sun's smile.
When it's raining hard like this, all I want to do is lock myself in my room.
Listening to sad symphony. Beautiful and calm tunes.. Flowing like a river..
The last time it rained like this, I was sittin with you. Only silence. Not even a word.
Best friend..
How are you?

Mumbling

It's been 9 days since our last conversation. Well I shouldnt worry about that rite?
I know u'll be ok.
I ever promised to u not to get sick, but it's seems like almost everyday I get sick.
Now I got sorethroat, make don't want to eat. Need a great medicine. I always get a problem with flu medicine. It takes a long time to heal me. =.= hahhhhhhhhh..Really need a great one.

By the way, I suddenly remember about my friend who is a gossipmonger. Well not only one, it's like everyone =.= even I dont know them. Poor people. They talk about shit, pretend they know me but hey, you don't even introduce urself to me. So wth? It's funny actually having some gossipmonger who always make an epic story. Haha.. U dont even know how hard I struggling for my life. So whatever you say.. please dont hesitate.. just yell it out loud, I dont care. Remember, I dont even know you..

Yay!

Today went so well yay!
I got up earlier than usual. Went to campus, the scholarship things done well.
And last night, I watched new MV from Bigbang.. Blue.. >.< So great..Love love it!!!!
Can't stop playin in my head..
haha.. I really love Bigbang o(>////<)o
Ah.. this afternoon I got my room cleaned up. Almost 3 hours to cleaned it and I changed some position of the bed and tables.
Then I went to church, it's Ash Wednesday! So crowded in church, and I fell asleep when I was in church. Hahaha I feel so tired because of three hours workin for my room. After that, I bought new lamp for my room. Yeaa it was so bright! ^__^
For dinner I ate tempe and sayur bening nyum nyum nyum.. I really like light green vegetables and tempe :3
Ah! Speaking of yummy things... I remember a little cute cat who sounds yum yum when it's eating!!!
REALLY CUTEEEE! aww! It's like myam myam miammm.. And I try to copy it's voice but it didn't sound like a cat -__-" hahaha
Ok let's check the video ^__^

yum yum yum :3

and this one is  my favorite :3

Sorrow violet

It's a true feeling from inside my heart.

Hear it...

Pure melodies and piece of sorrow..

Close your eyes and feel it with your heart

Imagine every happiness moment. There's no more sorrow.

Share happiness, and you'll fullfill your heart with a peace..

About luneapple

Lune is a poetic name for Earth's Moon. Lune is French for Moon.

I love moon. It's calm and glowing.

The silence of the moon.. keeping the secret safe.

Sometimes the moon looks so beautiful.

And sometimes it looks sad.

But whenever I watch the moon, there's somethin fillin my heart.

Maybe it's a little happines :)

 

Apple is my favorite fruite, besides orange.

I really like apples. They red, fresh and taste so good.

Always bring freshness to my life and keep me healthy.

I like Luneapple name.

It's just combination of my two favorite words :)

Shut Up

He is cold, tough and petrous
He only see himself, he doesn't care about me.
I cried and he said shut up
I laughed and he said shut up
I said please care for me , and all he said is me to shut up.
He wants peace, so I shut my mouth.
I hold his hand, I touch his face and I got rejected.
He walk away and didn't see me.
I don't know what he want.
I don't know what he's talking about.
I don't see me in his eyes.
Changed. Everybody changed.
That's why I never trust anybody.
They took all your faith and throw it like a trash.
That's all you got if you trust someone.
Human..oh please, don't trust them..
and don't trust me.

Sleepless nights

It's been a couple weeks I really can't sleep.
And just now I saw..that..the things that I don't want to see.
I dont know why it feels different. I am just fine to see that.
Am I run too fast? It's good actually. This is what I wish for about four years..
But hey, where are you? I keep searching and waiting.
Need to talk..

It's not about past, it's about the undone talk.

I just want to know, that's it. Our conversation isn't over.
So let's finish it.. I'll be waiting..Till you show up..

It's almost 4.30
And still.. I can't sleep..
I need to go home , but I can't :(
I feel that day is going faster. But it is not enough, I need it going faster than ever.
I want to skip everyday till I go home.
Just let me go home.. because it's tiring in here.
I am really tired.

Touch My Heart

New MV from Miss A ♥

Always gorgeous, looks beautiful you girls! xo

Jar of Hearts

I sang that song, in front of you

But you didn't realized..

It's all about you..

"Who do you think you are

Running round leaving scars..

Collecting your jar of hearts 

Tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

Don't come back for me

Who do you think you are?"

Gone

また少しやせた 背中を見ていた

会うたびあなたは優しい顔になってく

膝にしがみつき 泣きじゃくっていた

最後にあなたに 叱られたのはいつだろう...

くもった窓に 描いた ひとさし指の夢

なぞってみても 今はもう 疹んで消えてゆく

湯気の向こうで あなたの古ぼけた はな唄がそっと響いてる

正しくなくても 優しくなくても

ありのままならば 会いに行ける筈なのに

すりむいた傷 痛みを吹きとばしてくれた

あなたの指は いつからか 魔法を失った

それでも僕の心がその呪文 信じなくなってしまったの?

冬ぐもる 車窓に映る僕は

あなたの待つ あの日の僕に 似てるだろうか

Crier La Vie

"You hear me calling

But still walking away

This pain inside just won't go away

I can't watch you slipping away"

What worse than this?

I feeling unwell..there's a million things running through my mind.

It's been very long time I never feel peace in my mind.

It's getting worse everytime I think about life.

It's been almost two months I got my gastric acid imbalance because of stress.

I've been like this before, but this time is the worst.

It is complicated, so many thoughts, pain and confuseness..

Everyday is the same day..

I don't even now what I am talking about now. I started to stop writing on my diary since that day.

I even don't want to see that book again. I lost my spirit and I don't want to be saved right now.

When sun goes down, midnight comes.. I remember about so many bad times I had.

Tick - tock.. time's running and as time runnin away, I started to dig more..deeper..in my heart.

There was a bad time where I don't even want to think about.

I remember that time, when I really drown in dark hole in my mind.

It was sad.. deeper than sad, I don't know what was that feeling, until I felt painless and I'm became heartless.

I always refuse to think about that. Only when I get so weak, I start to search,

Talk to no one, and I can't find an answer. 

I refuse to sad, but it affects my body. Never had a good sleep until now. 

I remember that song..

It's called Thank You. I used to listen that song everyday. Beautiful song, deep meaning. It's a soundtrack of a serial movie that I used to watch everyday.

"Itsumo arigato hontou arigato, tatoe doko ni tatte kimi no sonzai ni kansha shiteru yo" I still remember that part.

Now when I heard that song, it remind me of that bad times..

Nothing worst than lost a person that you really love, and you there when you lost it.
You know, lost someone that you really love is better than lost family that you really love.
I exactly know how it feels like.

I never forget..That was the last time I called you..dad..

Because I Miss You

I recently watched K-drama, Heartstring. I don't really like it, but since I love CN Blue (this band is cool!), I decided to watch it. It's boring, but in the second episode, there was a beautiful song, sang by Yong Hwa. The title of this song is Because I miss you. I tried to translate it to English (according in the movie, not actual song) :

It's always the same sky, and the same days hasn't changed
The only thing that changed is that you're not longer in my side

I thought that I've let you go

No, no I can't

I still can't let you go

Loving you, loving you

Because I love you so much
Everyday, when I'm alone, I calling out your name

Miss you, miss you

Because I miss you so much
Now it's like a habit, I keep calling out your name

Even today

 Here is the full song :)

Random Dreams

I've got random dreams every night. I never had a deep sleep. Even when I'm sleep, my mind still working..

What a waste..That random dreams keep coming..

One with the delicate feeling..A pastel dream..

One with the anger, dark and dreary.

Like today.. It is a dreary day..The rain is falling..

Everytime I see a falling rain, my mind start to memorize every sad things

However, I still love rain

That cold breeze, the smells of the streets and the raindrops memories

Erase my delicate pastel dream..

It's lousy!

Poor quality pictures, don't know why I post it. Honestly I really don't like the colour of the photos. It looks good (not really good, but yeah it's not bad) when I saw it on BB, but when I saw it from PC..God, it's lousy!

*BTW I still haven't sleep yet! Last time I checked I was going to bed after the last post, but now I still stick on this chair WTF =.=

Set Fire to The Rain

Last song, before I sleep ..

The Pastel Memories

Last thought in my mind ..

The Sock Monkey

The cute monkey puppets made from socks!! :)
First time I saw this stuff is from How I Met Your Mother. In third or four episode (not sure), the main character Ted Mosby brought the giant sock monkey and it was really cute!!♥ I wish I have that!
After I googled about how to make sock monkey, I found a Indonesian blogger who made a simple tutorial about that, but it's hard to find the socks material for the puppets. I already searched in some store, but I only found short socks and the colour's not good :(
Wonder where I can find it?

Here's some picture of sock monkey :)

The classic sock monkey

From maribelmade.com

Super cute isn't it?!

From maribelmade.com too

Too much cuteness XD

Well Done

Well, this is the first time I have blog. Previously, I used tumblr to share my thoughts, but it's kinda heavy consider to the internet connection in Indonesia, which is..you know..it's suck! Then I deleted my account on tumblr.

My new blog's name is same with my tumblr. The sweet drops. At first i thought about a million names, but why not use the old one? :)

The sweet drops, just a few drop of dew in my life. Yeaa.. about my life..It's not always sweet though I WISH my life always full of sweet things and people. But in reality, emm, exactly now.. I'm in the worst situation in my life. Never been like this before, but I know God always take care of me, so I am not afraid. I know I'll go through this, so Ganbatte ne! Like Elke said (^___^)/